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Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Reflexion. 02 years since I jumped.



Today I complete 02 years of my freedom. This week, 24 months ago, after contemplating till eternity I finally took the leap of faith.
To be honest, it has not been all roses, being on your own never is.
 
Looking back I realize that I have done myself a HUGE favor by jumping in the unknown.  In fact taking my odyssey with the U&U situations, my trading and investing philosophy also revolves around that. Real riches or achievements are in the unknown and unknowable. People who remain within the confines of knowable and known are just another brick in the wall, run of the mill existence and since life is so short, they die before they learn 2 live.  (Do u know that your probability of dying during a given year doubles every 8 years)

Not that I achieved a whole lot monetarily. I earned ROI of close to 2% per month on my corpus, which comes to slightly better (40%) than my last drawn salary.  But that is because of a low base affect (Amex was paying peanuts).  

 Anyways it was never about money, all ma close friends can vouch for it. 
I would like to quote Ed seycota here,

 I don't judge success. I celebrate it. I think success has to do with funding and following one's calling regardless of financial gain’.

The kick I get out of what I do is priceless, the learning in these 02 years have been stupendous, the potential (I have just scratched the surface) is mind boggling and more than anything else no piece of shit tells me what I have 2 do. My day starts when I open my laptop and ends when I close it, and both the things can happen any time of the day I please!! (Irony is u tend to work more without much fatigue when u like it)
It has been a great decision in other perspectives as well, I have more time for myself, I play with my son Zohan and actually get to see him grow on a daily basis, I attend the workshops and seminars I wish, I go out interview and meet interesting people from my profession, I get time to meditate and exercise, I watch all my favorite programs and yes I read about 2 books a week, every week.

I couldn’t do even 1 of the above mentioned fancies earlier due to erratic work schedule and more than anything else as vouched by my family and friends I am a lot more cheerful and jovial since I left jail and I am sure over the years it will start reflecting on my health.

Read a book by Robert Skidelsky, “How Much is Enough”. (recommended by Vishal Khandelwal of Safal Niveshak) .

The book starts with an quote from Greek philosopher Epicurus – “Nothing is enough for the man to whom enough is too little.” The book argues that a person’s wealth should be calculated on 7 parameters and not just the paycheck increase (although even that was a question mark in Amex). They are

1.  Health
2.  Security
3.   Respect
4.  Personality
5.   Harmony with nature
6.   Friendship
7.   Leisure

I read this recently and so was not aware of these parameters when I took my leapof faith but in hindsight I realize that I was not doing justice to even a single one of the 7 back in corporate slavery days. 

I would like to take this occasion to once again urge the readers to find their calling in life and then JUMP. Just look around and see the no of people (your friends, family, neighbors etc) dying daily. It is inevitable, our days are numbered, make the most of it by doing what you are cut out 2 do and not what society expects of u.


As Mark Twain once said, “
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover”.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

The Eureka or AHA!!!



The Eureka !!

The Eureka or the AHA!! moment (as Ed Seycota puts it) is one where the confusion dissolves and you reach a stage in self discovery where you get to the root of the matter. You don’t resolve the issue; you just reach a stage in quiet contemplation where you just know the root cause of your misery.

The problem says Seycota resolves itself; it falls from its own accord. Its success was in its hiding and once that is gone, it ceases to exist. 

Although I chickened out of that Vipassna course half way, I think I got what I went there for. By observing the vibrations and sensations in my body, I was able to find a deep rooted flaw of my personality. It did not happen immediately; in fact the complete feeling has sunk in just now manifesting itself in form of this blog. 

The EUREKA moment for me is the realization that I am a great starter but a bad finisher. I am LAZY and a HUGE procrastinator. 

This is so funny, all my close friends would tell me that they knew this all along; you don’t have to meditate and sweat it out so much to figure out something that is so obvious.

However, what we don’t realize is that all great teachings of the world and all great miseries of the world are all based out of simple, straight forward and obvious. It is the obvious that always skip the mind. And you need deep contemplation to figure out the obvious. 

Our upbringing has been such that we need to sweat it out to reach to the obvious. Not at a superficial level, but as an existential experience. The core of your being should be made aware of your flaw that has been eating you up.


My flaw in my personality has affected almost every sphere of my life; here is an incomplete list of things I have left unfinished due to this huge folly.


  • ·         Passports not updated (delayed by 2 years)
  • ·         Shalini’s last name not changed (2 years)
  • ·         Car repair not done (1 year)
  • ·         Account closure of extra dmat (2 years)
  • ·         Did not read the books bought (20)
  • ·         Car ownership transfer not done (2 years)
  • ·         Car insurance, pollution, cross roads not renewed.
  • ·         My insurance not complete
  • ·         PPFAS investment pending
  • ·         Provident fund investment pending
  • ·         Office space purchase pending
  • ·         I don’t shave daily
  • ·         Started gardening and then discarded it
  • ·         I don’t exercise daily
  • ·         I don’t meditate daily
  • ·         I have stopped jogging
  • ·         I have stopped playing badminton and cricket
  • ·         I skip brushing at times
  • ·         Interviewing interesting people project in the back burner
  • ·         Not sticking to the decided, calibrated and back tested strategy in trading.
  • ·         Not sticking to decided, calibrated strategy in Investing.
  • ·         I have conveniently forgotten my charity targets


Apart from this I have a huge folly of bragging about myself, boasting off my achievements and down playing my failures.   

It is human nature, I know, however the idea is to reach above my  base instincts and be a better all rounded human being.
   

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